Bittersweet feelings...

Today was my last full day of school as an undergrad…I have two more tests and one more project to do. I am procrastinating…perhaps; I am a tad in denial about the upcoming end of all this stage of my life. Transitions are very difficult for me…the future is so alluring yet the past has grown padded walls around me. In the distance, I can see my husband who is waiting patiently (in his undisclosed location) so he can get a taste of what it is like to truly have a ‘live in” wife, while Africa competes for his attention. Her calls are getting louder and louder with each passing day. I will have to undergo two enormous transitions in only a matter of months. My independence is vital to my existence, but how long can I survive with only half my heart?

As my moving day approaches…insomnia moves in and anxiety makes my blood bubble…and so to add insult to injury the Canadian government decided to award me by sending my sweetheart to somewhere to do something …(Did I mention that I love the Army?)

Until Friday…when I will write from Pittsburgh…

Sad, Confused, and Speechless.

The last few days I have not been myself. I have a lot of thing running though my mind and I just can't seem to turn any of it off. On Monday morning on my way to school I heard the news of the first shootings at Virginia Tech. It wasn't until a few hours later that I learned of the second shooting. I spoke to many of my friends because I just could NOT comprehend how this "person" could kill two people in their rooms and then hours later proceed to another building to shoot and kill 32 more. I kept asking the same question to everyone "What was he doing for those 2+ hours in between the shootings?" I have avoided the news as much as possible because it saddens me to hear the reporters "guessing". I only want to know the hard facts...what did happen. NOT what they THINK happened. Finally, this evening my question was answered. This "person" went back to his room and took pictures of himself with guns, knives, and a hammer. Then made a DVD and blamed the world for the death of these students, wrote letters, and then MAILED the package to NBC NEWS. What kind of "person" does this? Why would a student be allowed to purchase weapons at a pawnshop across the street from school? WHY WHY WHY is there a store selling weapons near a campus? I just don't get it.

My heart goes out to everyone affected by this tragedy...nothing can be said to make anyone feel better. I hope this catalyzes government action on violence and gun control. I mean seriously...how blind must people be?